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yesterday harry potter did not let me down.i slept thru the past 2 harry potter movies.they are no doubt sleep inducing.quaint.har.i miss you.you know who i'm talkin about.i really do.i hope u know if u r the right one cuz i know someone else will think he/she is the one.i dont wanna make any mistakes.no more.anyway...harry potter was nice...and i actually did not go for lect cuz of a stupid reason...min...i feel quite guilty now.anyway...today has been a fuckin borin day.really.was dressed and wanted to go out to sudy.seriously.but i just didnt feel like goin in the end.i feel so weighted down these days.dunno bu what also.weird.i slept from one this morning to one this afternoon.not cuz i wanna sleep.but there's really nothing else to do.and seriously,lord pls pick me up and give me motivation and determination to hit the books tomorrow.i dont wanna fail the mids.it would be ugly.freakin ugly sight.yeps..gonna try and study later though.and will go offline soon.i just dont feel hapy these days.i need you to show me my existance.and my value.cuz i feel like i have none.where is the assurance?anyhow,before i self-drown myself again into the abyss of depression,i shall leave and not bask in this given freedom of writing.it is too boundless.allows maximum expression.which can harm sometimes.yepp.too much of something good is bad,too.i shall pray that all the problems of the pple i love be gone.because one hurtful action on their part upon another,could hurt that person so deep,the scar stays.
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