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i spoke to my dearie about things.reality.how so many factors can cause something to take a 180 degree turn.pple older are waiting for the right one.and sometimes even if they say they love you it aint true even if there's no evidence.cuz u know they are lookin for a wife material girl.and u just aint the one.u r like,cheated and so deeply but no one knows.especially him or her,because they think u don't know,or they themselves are oblivious to it.things won't last.that's the sad part.and sometimes this is so frustrating,when u just sink deeper and deeper.when all u gonna find at the bottom is toxic.u cant burst the bubble now cuz there aint any reason to.u can choose ignorance for it's an insanitanious act.u can only let it flow.take it's cause.and know that u are gonna get hurt.how when u find someone that u know will be so special to u in the end yet there are rocks blockin you.hurts like crap.it's a dream i just woke up to.i didnt want all these to happen.all my hopes just aint gonna come true.aint gonna be fulfilled.i have to heal my wound.and to tell you the truth,i'm bleedin so bad inside now.and it doesnt look like it'll stop.
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