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it's been a while since i blogged.and today about half an hr ago i felt the feeling of being lost once again because of another that's lost.i understand and i feel it.it's so painful.i think my blog life ended before orientation.to cut it short..i had my first orientation group.and i had my brother aaron bestowed to me there...that's really something i'm happy about...and i got my 2nd orientation group...they looked smart and serious...and they are smart..thank god not really serious...or i'd wring my own neck..4 subs class and i really love them...never felt so attached to a group of j1s before of for the matter of factly to any og i've handled...maybe this time it's pecial..it's my OWN og...it's mine...and noone else's prob justin's too..but still mine...they are so fucking funny omg just kill me...and since then i visit them often and it's like i've known them for eyons...it's way cool...anyway it's great...orientation's great 1t16's great aaron and his friends are great...i think these 1st 3 mths will b a hell lotta fun blog...o now on to my sch work...i have 40 articles i owe mr t...cuttings and their evaluation and summary...i did only like 13...and i argued with my geog tcher about the copying of lecture notes coz i stupidly and expectedly didnt hand up my tut on time...fuck...but what joy...she gave me an extension til e 1st of march...so i can officially cross out one set of hmwk...whee~...i have like a chinese test tml...and i cannot study for it because i didnt bring home my book...i'm majorly screwed...majorly.my whole life is screwed.had cross country today and my legs ache like crap...i worked it out too much...way too much...i'm gna kill my legs...and there's 2.4 trial for the 5th time tml...wtfff.and my jab numbed my entire arm bad...but wtf..it's just a hole...i have other worries.i can never lead a peaceful life...still have personal stuff buggin me...but it's good...they give me inspiration to write.so like when i feel bad stuff and it's in climax i write.there's one after this post....it's called unsatisfied.boy i m.someone's away and doesnt seem to give a damn...others just come even when i told them i'd kill them...in a nice way duh...there's something i have in my heart i'm gonna ponder on..it's fuck...i don't even remember what's the meaning and what i m supposed to feel when i'm in love...i lost it...not totally but gta spend time retrieving my senses...i don't know y i m feeling this way...someone's just had to make me feel this way.he's blurred in my mind...i need to focus him and my feelings...i need time...i need to fucking shut off.
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